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Gabriel Sato  

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Endgame and Happyishness

Journal Entry: Sun Apr 13, 2008, 10:29 PM
Yeah...

I have my own word now ^^ - Happyishness... Its another one of those adjective-noun transformations.... but it is really the notion of being attempting to be happy while doing something society dictates happy while feeling none yourself. I guess that really all I've been doing here... Art has helped me relax and leak myself you.. but beside that, it hasn't helped at anything else for me... It has not led me to removing the blindfold over my eyes, nor, as far as i can tell, has it removed anyones... All and all.. I think the reason I can't do this anymore is that I'm just sick of it. Everywhere I look, all I can see are people, blinded like me, unable to cope with a lie held over them and see the truth beyond...

For a while now, the only things that have gotten me through the days are the simple little things that seem so trivial for anyone to really care... But there is a source of security in these, like knowing that almost whatever happens, there will be that cherry blossom that I envy so much, just outside.

Yes.. I envy a tree...

It has this almost casual beauty that I have never been able to capture... its something that I've been able to watch day after day in IB Computer Science (Java). It seems to be giving this away, radiating a positive feeling, swaying delicately in the breeze. Its odd really.. after the winter, to see the tree in full bloom again... I've never noticed it before, and now that I need something to cling to more than ever, it blooms, as if it was waiting for me... Oddly, that tree has done so much for me, and It wants nothing in return. I want to thank it somehow, but I don't know how... I've tried to paint it, but I feel like I kill it every time I try. A photograph will not do it justice, and I doubt sculpture can capture her simple grace... She has a name now... She is Sakura (...) (she's the one between the 600 and 700 buildings)

I don't know why I'm trying to rationalize myself with a tree, but...

Really all i've been living for lately are those little things in life that get one through the day...

Things like meeting friends at lunch, and just being with them...

What happens when those no longer occur?

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Its been over a week since I watched Elfen Lied, but it asks the question: "what makes a person happy?"

But There is more... but I must go...

I've decided to leave deviantART

I really have no regrets...

I can't really explain why... it is just something I have to do...

This is my choice

There are a few things left to accomplish here, then...

Goodbye

Thank You All For Your Support ^^

  • Mood: Hopeless
  • Listening to: More Than a Feeling - Boston
  • Reading: This
  • Watching: Elfen Lied
  • Playing: Devil's Advocate With Myself
  • Eating: Foodish Stuff...
  • Drinking: Water

Devious Information

  • Current Age: 16
  • Current Residence: Kenmore, Near Seattle
  • Favourite movie: Peter Jackson's Lord of the Rings Series
  • Favourite band or musician: Boston
  • Favourite genre of music: Rock
  • Favourite artist: Not Me
  • Operating System: Windows XP (sadly)
  • MP3 player of choice: Iriver E100
  • Shell of choice: 88mm Flak
  • Wallpaper of choice: Wood Product?
  • Skin of choice: Umm...
  • Favourite game: Magic: The Gathering
  • Favourite gaming platform: PC
  • Personal Quote: What if the world was a good place?
  • Tools of the Trade: Pencil, Paper, Inspiration

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Devious Comments

*ectoranium:iconectoranium: Mar 16, 2008, 3:39:14 PM
Haha, sorry. But, your welcome. ^^;

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Imagination is stronger then knowledge.
Myth is more potent then history.
Dreams are more powerful then facts.
Hope always triumphs over experience.
Laughter is the only cure for grief.
Love is stronger then death.
~Seryia-Uchina:iconSeryia-Uchina: Mar 16, 2008, 12:52:00 PM
Umm... thanks?

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Is the only perfect world an empty world, with no one to sin or wage war?
*ectoranium:iconectoranium: Mar 16, 2008, 5:52:15 AM
Dude, I could stare at your icon ALL day. O_O

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Imagination is stronger then knowledge.
Myth is more potent then history.
Dreams are more powerful then facts.
Hope always triumphs over experience.
Laughter is the only cure for grief.
Love is stronger then death.
~Seryia-Uchina:iconSeryia-Uchina: Mar 11, 2008, 11:49:45 PM
:D

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Is the only perfect world an empty world, with no one to sin or wage war?
~Leukeh:iconLeukeh: Mar 11, 2008, 3:50:03 AM
Thanks for the faves and the add! =D

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†- Leukeh -†
~Seryia-Uchina:iconSeryia-Uchina: Mar 9, 2008, 10:34:53 PM
Sure, you're an amazing painter... :D

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Is the only perfect world an empty world, with no one to sin or wage war?
~biotechbob:iconbiotechbob: Mar 8, 2008, 5:38:37 PM
thx a lot for ure watch and fav

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~VulpesPolaris:iconVulpesPolaris: Mar 1, 2008, 6:13:16 PM
Oh, hi ^-^"! Ha, ha, it looks like that i recklessly mistaken this one messenge with another one i left on your pic of the colorful stuff... AH, how stupid of me...

He, he, XD! I just wanted to say that it is really cool! The synchronized movement avoiding each part to touch the other, so cool!!! ^-^!

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"What artists do, is to give life to the universe that lies within. Draw what's on your mind, and make it visible, bring it to this world. This is the true meaning of imagic!"
~Seryia-Uchina:iconSeryia-Uchina: Mar 1, 2008, 10:29:48 AM
Oh, sure.. That was amazing... ;)

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Is the only perfect world an empty world, with no one to sin or wage war?
=Amersill:iconAmersill: Mar 1, 2008, 10:14:08 AM
Hi! :wave:

Thanks for the :+fav: to my Can you hear its sound! :hug:

I hope that you'll visit all my gallery, as soon as you can! :)

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I'm sorry, but I cannot reply and thank you all because of the filter which doesn't allow me to post too many messages in a row.
Flagged as spam
!jessicamadison:iconjessicamadison: Mar 1, 2008, 5:31:44 AMFlagged as spam
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Wow! You really are a brilliant poet, aren't you?

Why don't you join the poetry contest from [link] ?


It's free and every nitwit such as myself who enters gets a small gift

but someone like you might win one of their $10 000 or $100 000 prizes.
~Seryia-Uchina:iconSeryia-Uchina: Feb 28, 2008, 3:23:26 PM
Thank you... XD

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Is the only perfect world an empty world, with no one to sin or wage war?
~VulpesPolaris:iconVulpesPolaris: Feb 27, 2008, 8:22:26 PM
What a cool icon you've got there :)!!!

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"What artists do, is to give life to the universe that lies within. Draw what's on your mind, and make it visible, bring it to this world. This is the true meaning of imagic!"
~Seryia-Uchina:iconSeryia-Uchina: Feb 22, 2008, 9:41:58 PM
Oh, sure...

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Is the only perfect world an empty world, with no one to sin or wage war?
~openregister:iconopenregister: Feb 21, 2008, 11:45:52 PM
thanks for faving my stuff ;D
~Seryia-Uchina:iconSeryia-Uchina: Feb 12, 2008, 5:52:17 PM
Oh, You're welcome...

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Is the only perfect world an empty world, with no one to sin or wage war?
*coloneljinx:iconcoloneljinx: Feb 11, 2008, 9:46:54 PM
Ta for the fav :)

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Anything worth doing is worth doing in Photoshop
~rmaec:iconrmaec: Jan 31, 2008, 6:11:44 PM
thank you though = ]
~rmaec:iconrmaec: Jan 31, 2008, 6:09:16 PM
omg who are you =o
*Proud-Pastry:iconProud-Pastry: Jan 18, 2008, 8:41:13 PM
And Hello to you too 8D
~Seryia-Uchina:iconSeryia-Uchina: Jan 17, 2008, 3:53:08 PM
Oh, anytime...

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Is the only perfect world an empty world, with no one to sin or wage war?
~SuperNES:iconSuperNES: Jan 17, 2008, 3:45:27 PM
thanks for both the :+fav: and also your suggestion to my wannabe design page!

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Come on over and do the twist
Over do it and have a fit
Love you so much it makes me sick
Come on over and do the twist
~Seryia-Uchina:iconSeryia-Uchina: Dec 19, 2007, 4:29:09 PM
Yeah

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Is the only perfect world an empty world, with no one to sin or wage war?
=OriginalNES:iconOriginalNES: Dec 17, 2007, 10:25:42 PM
Haha, I guess not. Gotta love RvB.
~Seryia-Uchina:iconSeryia-Uchina: Dec 8, 2007, 12:14:10 AM
Oh, of course ;)

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Is the only perfect world an empty world, with no one to sin or wage war?